这是什么意思啊

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Since that burglary.. I feel traumatised.
I am extremely terrified in the dark (since I am back in my room it's not that bad anymore, but outside or in morocco it was horrible) and it's already dark at 20:00 here... so yeah I can't be outside at that time anymore xD..
I became extremely emotional. I get angry and sad at the same time about 5 things, and when I ask myself "why am I crying?" then I can't answer it because I don't know but I can't stop crying.
there are so many reasons
you should know them by now. I won't say them again, people will be annoyed because they can't understand me.
Nevermind. Somehow I just want everything to stop. I wanna run away -o- stop making videos and everything.. huhh..

and .. I am confused about Lotte
it seems I won 1st stage but.. I didn't receive the mail yet. (Sara already received it.. 3 days ago? 4?)
and then I am confused about 2nd stage. Anyone can join again!? What?? This really shocked me. My motivation is gone. I thought only the 5 winners from 1st stage. What the hell did I work for, you know I really did my best and worried so much~
I don't care anymore. I won't join in 2nd stage. I won't win anyway. How could I?.. in 1st stage.. ALL OF A SUDDEN they passed me in 1 day. Even more people passed me in 2 days. AT THE END. I am weak. I mean, I love Sara. But I have more subscribers, but her video suddenly got an extreme amount of views in 1 day. I don't understand this. Whatever. I am just annoyed by this. My feelings are going crazy. And people who's fault it is don't even notice it. (NO NOT YOU SARA!!! >< I love u)

Lol it's 5 AM in Austria now
I'd go to psychiatrist again but I can't. And my mum wouldn't take it serious anyway. But something is REALLY wrong with me since I am back from Morocco. Today was really bad, I felt like I would explode any second.
And no, I don't have my period. -o-

Answer 1

自从那盗窃…我觉得精神。
我非常害怕在黑暗中(因为我回到我的房间没那么糟糕了,但是在摩洛哥外面或感觉很糟糕),它已经在这里…所以20:00黑暗啊,我不能在那时间了权…
我变得非常情绪化。我生气而伤心的在同一时间大约5的事,当我问自己:“我为什么要哭?”然后我不能回答这个问题,因为我不知道,但我忍不住哭了。
有很多理由
你应该知道他们了。我不认为他们会惹恼了人,因为他们无法理解我。
不用了。不知怎么的,我只是希望一切都能停下来。我要远走- o -停止拍摄录影带和一切huhh……

和…我迷茫乐天
看来我赢了第一阶段,但…我没有收到邮件。萨拉已收到了……(3天前吗?4吗?)
然后我烦恼;二期工程。任何人都可以加入了! ?什么? ?这真使我感到震惊。我的动机是一去不复返了。我认为只有5%的胜者。我到底是什么工作,你知道我真的尽力了,如此担心~
我不在乎了。我不会参加第二阶段。反正我不会赢。我怎么能在第一阶段吗?……突然,他们给了我在1天。甚至更多的人从我身边经过2天。在结束了。我很弱。我的意思是,我喜欢莎拉。但我有更多的用户,但她的视频突然有了极端的观点在1天。我不明白这一点。不管。我只是感到恼火了。我的感觉是疯了。与人的过错是甚至不会注意到它。(没有你莎拉! ! !>《我爱你)。

5我好好的在奥地利
我想去,但我不能再精神病。和我的妈妈就不会把它严重吧。但是一些真的是我因为我从摩洛哥。今天真的很不好,我感觉我就会爆炸任何第二。
不,我没有。- o -我